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2004-03-24 - 8:13 p.m.

The ability to manipulate language changes over time, mostly over no time at all. The inclusive nature of language, like the inclusive tendency of the human animal brain leaves the ability for meaning to be exact. A newfound embarrassing awareness of the inexact feeds inclusiveness. Phrased in less artificial word nebulas, in spring time the grass is still brown and resting, not yet harboring any predators. The competition between a city-I statement and an I-suburb statement and how eventually richer roads are raised up in opposite direction, headed for the country right when the brain has accepted something for sure and the developers have pocketed the money. The bucolic tongue I hear savors monkey brains and the throat approaches ideas without any pre fabricated tasty tones to talk about the tension topping grope that led to incest and other idiosyncratic/blissful behaviors. Name some good speakers today? What processes did they borrow their speech from? ATM machines, ballpoint pens and interest rates? Right now I think that there is a lot of light switch speech, on/off, dim/bright but what about the fundamental larger light? Going back to fundamentals and honed thesis�s. What is it exactly that makes say Regis Philbun such a competent speaker? How is the tone and how is the pacing of his agenda delivered? Shit, does he even have a clear agenda? What is tasteful and what is distasteful about him? Or is it something tasteful, distasteful that results from sitting on a stool next to the Kelly Ripa? Is the message always hidden behind the want for a career spent having children and keeping the cluster rewards of the career together with regular mind blowing oral sex. Phyllis my next door neighbor said that borders have been swelling into confusion in this country lately. No more fences, no strict hedges and the cows and the chickens are all free range and eaten as such and the consumer pays for it all. She predicts that, �Soon the West will be one big Louisiana Purchase again.� I asked her, �What if the return back predates Napoleon,� and at this point she starts shaking with what looks like little to no answer. �No need to explain,� Phyllis I say, �More urgent need to drive on toward a more efficient sum it up God who is key note, so the tone people can form a relationship to it.� Explanation doesn�t lead to landscapes that look like the (bulk) of the Middle West no matter how hard the speaker/listener couple function together ecstatically. Passion water flows down from the mountains further west. On the bayou, best not to drink directly, treated water is as good for a single body as it is for the population there. If it gets flat and approaches neutrality there is still a need to be elsewhere in mind and if the need has been made focal, facial/advertized and subsequently is transgressed, is there still want? Like one of my fathers said, �You always want to eat the meal the person next to you is having.� He made an astute point, �Dangerous things hide in tall grasses and people watch shows about sinful animals, yet eventually the dangerous creatures, with further understanding, you the students, will see the inspiring desires.� �Why is inspiration always so fucking sexy?� I ask. My father/teacher went on in his drone, �Planned terminations are always frowned upon by the students who memorized the true and false questions for this quiz, so shut the fuck up!� Understanding done away is understanding rendered gray and that is A-Ok. (Text dosages) My ancient lit professor/doctor says �Take it all in and call me in the morning on Tuesdays and R but if the text works for you by then there will be no need to call as you will have given up on the myth of for sure contact intended meaning and it will save you cents in the end.� It made me take that picture of Abe Lincoln on page 553 where he is winding up a pocket watch near an open door and rip it out of my American History textbook which I had paid for to the point of bankruptcy. I stuck two oversized loops (for maximum ability to stick to the surface of things) of scotch tape and hung it on the wall for all to see and believe.

Not all wines are aged the same in these vineyards. The cells love serotonin and begin to form panels that take energy straight from the sun, (Now that�s most definitely a successful bypass!) there is no intermediate steps, direct energy and conversion found in the posture and the gait turns into a trot. Responsibility begins to fade away like condom ads and the ultimate responsibility is not merely to the species and after this, the career is nothing. Outside of the immediate, countless joys of sensual discovery, the pursuits are laughable and lamentable. I no longer can assume that the species cares for the individual. Entering into a relationship with another organism that can manipulate language for survival and express the infinite steps of planned and unplanned or conscious and unconscious experience comes back to the show and tell games of Kindergarten. Can it be an experience if it is unconscious? Is it decided temporally? What I mean is say if in the future at some point, the organism wakes up in the middle of the night and the irony of a statement made years ago is finally extractable only b/c it is not finally at all, is it only at that point a conscious but what if fantasy bio is remembered in terms of the mistake? Do dream archetypes make access possible? Was it just hidden vanity, vanity repressed? Confession: I spend more time thinking about those things that I don�t completely understand and it�s hard to say this without at least a trace of irony as I have a steadfast conviction that no objects are so called completely understood. This way of thinking might just be a trick and thus false but like most intended tricks, there is a higher purpose that lives beyond the immediate and is intended to almost derail the many detriments of the detail. For example, remember those Chinese immigrants who laid out the Central track in the Sierra Nevada range. They were never included in the photographs at Promontory Point. It�s no surprise b/c to this day people prefer that one train instead of giving credit to those that maintain or helped to build the track. There are things everywhere whose lack of maintenance will often grossly effect the minor, the lesser, the thing lacking power. This statement is so vague that it could be a fourth and two attempt from my lady for more oral sex, a super vain or relatively mortal utterance. I love, to realize, the vague nature of all statements especially the most ephemeral, or any other statement that encourages action but am forever attracted to the undecided, the uncertain, like I am to the woman just before her top comes off or in the carefully screened words of a bachelor with a rather low speed modem before the pixels on a computer screen are not yet filled or fulfilled in just yet another hot dwnload.

These sentences have been brought to you by Cabernet Sauvignon, some coffee, a single handjob and the growing March light.

 

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